" my father was most often angry when I was most like him. "
-- lillian hellman
as a daughter, I've always found it easier to be attached to my father. maybe it's the personality clash between my mother and me, or maybe it's the lack of clash between us. it could be because he and I are both the middle child. who knows? as I've gotten older, it has been easier for me to open up to daddy. he's always been the type to sit back and watch us grow up, witness our mistakes, and ground us if we didn't take mom seriously. I always thought my dad was strict and stern, until I got older and noticed his expression softening when he yelled at me one time. it was then I realized, my dad truly cares for his children, he just has a bad way of being protective. it's his children who have made him capable of being gentle, because every man like my father starts out closed and arrogant. I always see the young dads with their baby girl, he looks like the happiest man in the world, and I always call my dad at that moment with the biggest smile on my face. the only man a girl can fully trust is her daddy, and without that daddy, well we wouldn't be able to find the right one for our own kids later on, right?
boys would be gone without warmth from a woman's good heart. thanks john mayer. I guess I've learned a lot from my dad. I probably won't even fully understand myself until I get older, and begin to act somewhat like my dad too (because I am scared as hell to become my mom)..but I know my dad has also learned a lot from me. I just hope I can one day show my dad how grateful I am for everything he's done for me.
oh yeah, happy father's day.
