1.09.2011

beat of my heart everyday of my life

" perfection is not all about control, it's also about letting go. "
-- the black swan

who even invented the word perfect? honestly, there should be a rule book, or displayed guideline when somebody learns the meaning of that word because people apply something so specific to broad generalizations. there are different ways to be perfect; for some people it means excelling in academic aspects, for others it means excelling in social aspects, and for some it means every possible aspect. of course it's possible, just as long as being insane comes with the idea of perfection. perhaps how 'perfect' you wish to be is a reflection of how critical you are of yourself.

people go to lengths to be perfect, to reach a level with absolutely no flaws. me? I figured myself out: I need those flaws. I need those smudges. without jagged lines here and there, what would I bitch about? what would I try to fix? what would push me to grow? what's perfect is what suits individuality. perfection comes with the distinguishing characteristics each person has. you alone decide what is perfect for yourself, what brings out your individuality because very few people focus on anybody else's individuality on a daily basis. sometimes embracing a totally hidden side of yourself can bring out the perfection you've always wanted, that quality you have that gives what make you unique.

just understand that humans are constantly changing. people can't function without questions, and can't relax without answers. ideas of love, happiness, and perfection all boil down to each person and what they set or decide to embrace or let go. whatever you strive for, be sure to create your own guidelines first.