just kick it like tybo

"he's not the only guy in the universe, but he's the only who matters. "

-- anonymous

I am done with bitching about anonymous. I'll be the bigger person. as usual. ha?

okay well, a lot of people matter. just in different ways and to different degrees. I talk about relationships a lot..and let's be honest here, who doesn't? and quite frankly, it's good that we do. nobody knows the right answer nor do they understand completely the situation in the first place. hell, I don't even understand why some of the things that happen in my relationships piss me off. but it's always good to gain insight to stop making stupid mistakes. look at it this way, two people dating..serious or not, matter to each other. for selfish reasons? for selfless reasons? who knows...you don't. I certainly do not. I do know that it's not for nothing that things get serious and that certain people make a way deep into us (that's what she said) but at the same time, we need to learn when to draw the line. if it's necessary, of course. but that saying is true, you don't know what you got 'til it's gone...you don't. I don't. sometimes it helps you realize whether what you had was worth your time and effort, but for the most part that's the lesson we wanted at the time wasn't it? yup it was. indeedles.

what an amazing show. this is one of my favorite love stories. even if the other women he dated were significantly hotter. just goes back to my theory of personality > looks.

chocoholics? I aint seen no chocohol.

"the person with a clear conscience probably has a poor memory. "

-- anonymous

again, anonymous, why must you be everywhere? can't you have another name? one that can claim credit? anyways, this quote explains my life. I remember everything. I just know how to look the other way sometimes. for instance, I remember anytime I'd been mean to someone, and try to fix that years later. I've learned over the years though sometimes people become rough over the years and it's better to let things be.

memories are weird things. for instance, you remember things people tell you..they don't remember telling you, so you are an absolute creeper. not like that happens to me or anything. memories sometimes bring out the worst in people, such as when people remember those who have wronged them, or lost causes in relationships, or just things that are permanently changed. I think memories are great. I'm glad we are capable of having them because they remind us of lessons we have learned from each of our experiences. memories help us see and realize how much we have grown. even if the stuff isn't our favorite, it's still great to see the change and how we dealt with it. personally, that's what matters the most at the end of the day: if we are content with what we know about ourselves.

pictures are a great way of looking back. although, I will admit, as much as I like them, they are not necessary to remember things. it's just nice to recall the way people smiled together and could stand each other enough to pose for a picture. and to see how people have changed on the outside. just the outside.

down like the economy

" when I found 'Mr. Right', I had no idea his first name would be 'Always'. "

-- bumper sticker

my sister and mom one time when I was really little read aloud that bumper sticker in a random tourist store and laughed...I had no idea why...until I grew some common sense.

I like men..obviously. but I like the stereotypes about manly men. I do like that they can be arrogant and rude, sometimes absolute pigs (keyword: sometimes), AND the way they validate themselves (by a lot of the time being absolute assholes). luckily, I was given the type of personality that allows me to contradict myself all the time..so I very much at times dislike those things, but of course that's only when I'm not in the best mood. personally, I think women can also be just as difficult, we just have more sense of emotions and consideration. and yes, I know, some guys are great with emotions but I am positive any two females can connect better than any sensitive guy and random female in this world. some stuff is just a natural gender bond. anyways, I think as much as we hate on men, or the alpha males in this world, or the arrogant assholes in this world, they need to be appreciated (not too much) but enough for them to stay the way they are. we can learn from them in certain ways. maybe not the healthiest, but I mean not all lessons are meant to be healthily taught..correct? I think so. people will disagree, but that is humanity. just like the assholes. don't change it, appreciate it.

you never know when somebody is the "right" somebody. it's relative. I mean I can't decide for you, I can't tell you the golden rule. I have MY golden rule, and I'm not nearly similar enough to anybody for that golden rule to even make sense to you. if you need me to generalize, I would just tell you to figure out what you're lacking, and if that person completes you in a way that doesn't hinder your abilities or change your character. I know, I sound like your mother. what do you want from it? passion? ease? it depends on what you want. I will say though, passion usually triumphs. at least for me. aka head vs. heart, usually heart triumphs. just make sure you don't screw yourself over. I know I haven't...yet.