what are you so afraid of

"how one walks through the world, the endless small adjustments of balance, is affected by the shifting weights of beautiful things."
-- elaine scarry


I think sometimes we have a hard time letting go because we aren't sure where to draw the line. it's not supposed to be easy. these days people take risks and open hearts before thinking, people mistake acceptance as settling, and people forget the little things which serve as building blocks for our overall big picture..for the supposed 'greater good'. so what do we do? how do we set our limits without losing our balance?

sometimes I think we're always at an imbalance because we're always figuring out where to go next. things go well, then they don't. we have things to anticipate, then it's over. for every high, there's a low. everything comes with a price in every part of life. it doesn't matter if it's in the name of love or liberty; if there isn't a sacrifice, chances are it lacks enough of an effect for any direction towards balance in the first place.

it boils down to each person. which high is worth it? which disappointment can you withstand? because nobody is perfect, I am a perfect example of that. but I also know after a moment of reflection, certain consistencies between highs and lows measure a person's self-worth. it doesn't matter how people weigh each other, it mostly matters how much somebody can sustain an imbalance. once heavy highs are let go, the heavy lows follow. to understand self worth is always going to be an intrinsic battle, enabling possibilities for the best-fitted wavelength per person. trust me, finding that wavelength is worth the journey. without the adventure, what's the point of any of this?